Monday, April 30, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
More than what I see..
Is that person that I see really that person? Am I looking at something different? Perhaps a mask that you put on in order for others not to see what really lies beneath? Of what you are truly made to be.. Or how you are truly.. I don't know. I'm unsure. Maybe you yourself don't even know, cause, you have been putting on that mask for too long a time and you don't even know and realize what you are deep deep down inside.... But, I know that my God knows and as it has always been said, God really looks into the HEART.. It is that that really matters..
It's so easy to put on a show just to give a good impression or to attract people's attention..Isn't it??
*Anyway,I ate CHEESECAKE yesterday...hheahahaa...YUP!!It was Daddy's birthday and Jo made it!!ohh..and it was the Agong's thingy also...
It's so easy to put on a show just to give a good impression or to attract people's attention..Isn't it??
*Anyway,I ate CHEESECAKE yesterday...hheahahaa...YUP!!It was Daddy's birthday and Jo made it!!ohh..and it was the Agong's thingy also...
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
SCHool
HAhaa...Just thought of putting up some pictures...Pictures of school people...YEah!!PICTURES!!!
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
little time left..
The thought of me leaving Kluang scares me...And recently,it has come to my senses more and more..It may be soon or later..But nevertheless I would have to leave this place sooner of later...But,the thought of it really makes me realize how little time I have left in this place,Kluang..I LOVE this place!!!My home,family,friends,uncles,aunties,so many people...And so many fond memories...But,then again,things on Earth are NOT PERMANENT...
Monday, April 16, 2007
Deeper In Love (Don Moen)
There is a longingonly You can fill
A raging tempest
only You can still
My soul is thirsty Lord
to know You as I'm known
Drink from the river
that flows before Your throne
Take me deeper
Deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than I've ever been before
I just want to love You more and more
How I long to be deeper in love
Sunrise to sunrise
I will seek Your face
Drawn by the Spirit
to the promise of Your grace
My heart has found in You
a hope that will abide
Here in Your presence
forever satisfied
How I long to be deeper in love
In all the striving and trying,failings and disapointments,and so much more Lord,You are the only One..The only Perfect One that throughly fills my emptiness..This song is my prayer O God...AMEN.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
URggHh...IT's L.E.A.K.I.N.G.
My nose is LEAKIng!!!Swallow my saliva also painful..Then now my nose is leaking...I feel like im wasting the tissue papers..POor Trees...SIGh..BUt my nose just keeps leaking...CAn't help it..
And what makes it worst is that this morning,I ate SPOILT Curry for breakfast...It smelt a lil bit sour but I thought that my sense of smell and taste were tricking me just because I had a blocked nose..So,I thought aiyar nevermind lar...just eat it..Anyway,I didnt have anyone to help me taste it or smell it..So,I just ate it like any other days when I eat curry for breakfast...ahahhaaa...and just now,my mum asked me,eh,you ate the curry arh??Spoilt leh....ANd I'm like....HUH!?!NO wonder it smelt a lil funny but I just ignored it...KAKAaa..So,now i'm feeling worst..My stomach is churning and churning...And my nose is still leaking!!!!!
And what makes it worst is that this morning,I ate SPOILT Curry for breakfast...It smelt a lil bit sour but I thought that my sense of smell and taste were tricking me just because I had a blocked nose..So,I thought aiyar nevermind lar...just eat it..Anyway,I didnt have anyone to help me taste it or smell it..So,I just ate it like any other days when I eat curry for breakfast...ahahhaaa...and just now,my mum asked me,eh,you ate the curry arh??Spoilt leh....ANd I'm like....HUH!?!NO wonder it smelt a lil funny but I just ignored it...KAKAaa..So,now i'm feeling worst..My stomach is churning and churning...And my nose is still leaking!!!!!
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
And there goes...The last one probably..
MSSJ.Well,ok..I have gotten much from it this year.ONe thing for sure is that for me,it was the best MSSJ ever compared to the other 3 times I went before.yup...
Form 1,I was too blur a kid..And not knowing much of what i'm really doing,I just went and didnt really get to know many and didnt quite enjoy myself.It was at the same place as this year..Bandar Penawar..And the toilets at the school we stayed in were YUCKS!!really...and that was like my first time away from home in such an environment and not having much company..Or anyone that im familiar with..
Form 2,oklar...I went again..this time in KLuang..
Form 3,I kind of rejected the offer to join MSSJ for that time...HAhaaa...Now that I look back,I think I shouldn't have but anyhow,its over...NO ReGRets..No Regrets..:)
Form 4,in KLuang again..And got 2nd for 100m hurdles..hehee..4 x 200m,was disqualified..
And now,for this year,year 2007,Priscilla joins again,16+ years old,in Bandar Penawar, 4-7April..Stayed there from the 3rd to the 7th..Got some new experiences...Met new ppl..Some old ones..And got to know others better,new teachers,newer participants..And also got to know a lil bit more about myself as I stayed with others..Tolerating with them,as some can be extremely irritating and annoying..Seriously..Through such situations,I get to know how I react with different kinds of situations..
Anyway,I actually ran the 200m till the end..I was thinking twice of running it because right after this 200m event,I had to run the 100m hurdles..And in the afternoon,I would have to run the finals for 100m hurdles.And that would be tiring and will affect my timing and performance..So,my teacher said "OKlar,you don't run until the finishing..Halfway,after striding for about 30m,you stop and pretend that you have a muscle cramp or pull.Then you walk away..(cause if I don't pretend,I can't just walk off like that,I might be disqualified and I can't participate in any other events at all after that..)"So,I went for the event having the thinking that I would be stopping after striding for like 30m..But then at the same time,I was questioning myself..Am I short-coming my God??Am I limiting what he can do?Because if my God is soo Great,wouldn't he make sure that I would have the enough energy to sustain the whole day of my others events??And am I not to give MY BEST to God?And my best indeed is not to stop halfway and give up..ok...
So,KEgarisan,Sedia,GO!!!IN my head I was like..to stop or not to stop...As I reached the curve I was like aiyar..just run till the end lar...So,I continued to run aand run..till the end.After finishing,I was like hmmm,why did I run till the end??Because,now,Im feeling a lil exhausted and I have an event coming up..The event that I have always been taking and had the most potential to perform better compared to the 100m and 200m..And as I was at the khemah after that,that same teacher asked me why you finish the race??and then another teacher that teaches me hurdles also asked me...WHy then did I finish the race??Beacuse,I don't wanna control what God can do and I should give my best and NEVER GIVE UP..And actually,my running time for 200m actually did improve..IM HAPPY!!
OHH..There was no water for 2 days..Had to walk to the Surau downstairs to get water..and then climb up the stairs and beratur to wait for my turn to bathe..With all the noises from those other girls especially in the afternoon and night..And on the first day,these bunch of girls woke up at 5.00 and started making a whole lot noise as if no one else exist in that classroom...so,I couldnt sleep And had the 100m for that day..Woke up and bathe...
The 2nd day also the same,they woke up,I woke up and had to walk down to the surau to get water at 5 in the morning..Then went to the stadium for 200m and 100m hurdles.Then after coming back from the stadium,this teacher said that Kamu semua tak boleh mandi,hanya boleh lapkan badan...All the guys were like YEs!!!and the girls went EWWW!!Imagine coming back from the stadium all sweaty and oily and YUCCKyyy..and now cannot bathe...Anway,at last I managed to bathe...I think i'm gonna miss all of these..The people..So many of themmm...
That was a lil picture of how this year's MSSJ went..But there are other stories too...ButI think I better stop writing now..If not it will be TOO long a post..ahhaaa.a...then your poor eyes will have to read so much..MUAHAHAaaaa.....
I'm burnt and tired...Catching up with homework..OHhh ya..the results this time...A lil surprising..Some that I thought that I would have done badly actually turned out fine..or should I say GOOd!!!
Form 1,I was too blur a kid..And not knowing much of what i'm really doing,I just went and didnt really get to know many and didnt quite enjoy myself.It was at the same place as this year..Bandar Penawar..And the toilets at the school we stayed in were YUCKS!!really...and that was like my first time away from home in such an environment and not having much company..Or anyone that im familiar with..
Form 2,oklar...I went again..this time in KLuang..
Form 3,I kind of rejected the offer to join MSSJ for that time...HAhaaa...Now that I look back,I think I shouldn't have but anyhow,its over...NO ReGRets..No Regrets..:)
Form 4,in KLuang again..And got 2nd for 100m hurdles..hehee..4 x 200m,was disqualified..
And now,for this year,year 2007,Priscilla joins again,16+ years old,in Bandar Penawar, 4-7April..Stayed there from the 3rd to the 7th..Got some new experiences...Met new ppl..Some old ones..And got to know others better,new teachers,newer participants..And also got to know a lil bit more about myself as I stayed with others..Tolerating with them,as some can be extremely irritating and annoying..Seriously..Through such situations,I get to know how I react with different kinds of situations..
Anyway,I actually ran the 200m till the end..I was thinking twice of running it because right after this 200m event,I had to run the 100m hurdles..And in the afternoon,I would have to run the finals for 100m hurdles.And that would be tiring and will affect my timing and performance..So,my teacher said "OKlar,you don't run until the finishing..Halfway,after striding for about 30m,you stop and pretend that you have a muscle cramp or pull.Then you walk away..(cause if I don't pretend,I can't just walk off like that,I might be disqualified and I can't participate in any other events at all after that..)"So,I went for the event having the thinking that I would be stopping after striding for like 30m..But then at the same time,I was questioning myself..Am I short-coming my God??Am I limiting what he can do?Because if my God is soo Great,wouldn't he make sure that I would have the enough energy to sustain the whole day of my others events??And am I not to give MY BEST to God?And my best indeed is not to stop halfway and give up..ok...
So,KEgarisan,Sedia,GO!!!IN my head I was like..to stop or not to stop...As I reached the curve I was like aiyar..just run till the end lar...So,I continued to run aand run..till the end.After finishing,I was like hmmm,why did I run till the end??Because,now,Im feeling a lil exhausted and I have an event coming up..The event that I have always been taking and had the most potential to perform better compared to the 100m and 200m..And as I was at the khemah after that,that same teacher asked me why you finish the race??and then another teacher that teaches me hurdles also asked me...WHy then did I finish the race??Beacuse,I don't wanna control what God can do and I should give my best and NEVER GIVE UP..And actually,my running time for 200m actually did improve..IM HAPPY!!
OHH..There was no water for 2 days..Had to walk to the Surau downstairs to get water..and then climb up the stairs and beratur to wait for my turn to bathe..With all the noises from those other girls especially in the afternoon and night..And on the first day,these bunch of girls woke up at 5.00 and started making a whole lot noise as if no one else exist in that classroom...so,I couldnt sleep And had the 100m for that day..Woke up and bathe...
The 2nd day also the same,they woke up,I woke up and had to walk down to the surau to get water at 5 in the morning..Then went to the stadium for 200m and 100m hurdles.Then after coming back from the stadium,this teacher said that Kamu semua tak boleh mandi,hanya boleh lapkan badan...All the guys were like YEs!!!and the girls went EWWW!!Imagine coming back from the stadium all sweaty and oily and YUCCKyyy..and now cannot bathe...Anway,at last I managed to bathe...I think i'm gonna miss all of these..The people..So many of themmm...
That was a lil picture of how this year's MSSJ went..But there are other stories too...ButI think I better stop writing now..If not it will be TOO long a post..ahhaaa.a...then your poor eyes will have to read so much..MUAHAHAaaaa.....
I'm burnt and tired...Catching up with homework..OHhh ya..the results this time...A lil surprising..Some that I thought that I would have done badly actually turned out fine..or should I say GOOd!!!
Sunday, April 1, 2007
Feelings
Feelings overwhelming me..
And ohh..how I wish...how I just wish that they wouldn't at times..
If only words could fully express all that's needed to or wanted to....
Feelings are just feelings...How true is that??
It's easier said than done...True..Very True..
*Anyway,will be leaving for Bandar Penawar,Kota Tinggi day after tomorrow..Tuesday morning..and will be back on saturday night....It's gonna be the LAST MSSJ for me (sob..sob...sob)haihh..Another one week away from school..and also YF..You know,when I went to school just for a short while on Friday,that day,I felt kind of like a stranger..Missed school for only just a few days,and already being 'out of touch' with what's happening in school while i was away...Same goes for YF too...
And ohh..how I wish...how I just wish that they wouldn't at times..
If only words could fully express all that's needed to or wanted to....
Feelings are just feelings...How true is that??
It's easier said than done...True..Very True..
*Anyway,will be leaving for Bandar Penawar,Kota Tinggi day after tomorrow..Tuesday morning..and will be back on saturday night....It's gonna be the LAST MSSJ for me (sob..sob...sob)haihh..Another one week away from school..and also YF..You know,when I went to school just for a short while on Friday,that day,I felt kind of like a stranger..Missed school for only just a few days,and already being 'out of touch' with what's happening in school while i was away...Same goes for YF too...
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